Within the past few days, I’ve become aware of a new lesson I’m learning during this time away from my “normal life.” Before I tell you the lesson, I want to reassure anyone who is concerned about me –  I’m doing well! I received a couple of messages after the last post that seemed to indicate people were concerned that I am struggling with life in my current situation. (Please forgive me if I sounded that way in the last post.)

I have my moments where I have a pity party or become frustrated with the lack of information and ability to plan visits to the States (or anything else about life beyond what I’ll have for dinner), but overall, I am thriving in the midst of this craziness. God has provided opportunities to pour into others and minister in ways I never expected, and He continues to encourage me to take the opportunity to rest as well. Life is good in the middle of unknowns!

Now, to the lesson: I am replaceable… and that’s a good thing!

I’ve always had a high sense of responsibility. If I commit to helping with something, I will do my best to fulfill that commitment – even if I’m sick or there is some other valid reason for pulling back. Perhaps some of it is pride, but I think the sense of duty is the primary reason. I push to be there for others, and I feel bad if I can’t do something I’ve said I’ll do.

I remember a week last December where I felt I could barely get off the sofa, but I got ready and left my house every day because I was scheduled to be somewhere to play music or sing or serve. In hindsight, any of those events could have gone on without me, but I couldn’t bear the thought of letting people down or disappointing them.

As I’ve been out of Ireland for seven weeks now, I’m happy to say none of the ministries I’ve been involved in there have crumbled in my absence. I know I’m missed and I miss the people there, but life has continued and others have stepped (with ease) into roles I had filled.

My absence has been forced by circumstances beyond my control, but I’m grateful for time to step back and evaluate the roles I’ve been filling. I don’t know what God has in store for the future, but it’s freeing to realize that I don’t carry the responsibility for any of the ministry opportunities I’ve been privileged to be part of. When my time in a place or ministry passes, God will raise up others to fill that place. I don’t have to carry guilt for stepping away from things that I’m no longer called to do or for moving onto other things God is leading me toward.

Is there someplace in your life where you feel perhaps the season is over but you feel bad for stepping back? Do you need to let go of some things to rest or to be free to pick up other things? Holding onto things out of pride or a sense of duty can lead to burn out, resentment, missing other opportunities and much more. If you refuse to step out of a role God is leading you out of, you may also be robbing someone else of the blessing of serving in the area where God is wanting to move them.

If you are struggling to keep up with everything or no you longer feel fulfilled in something you’re doing, it MAY be time to ask God whether you need to let go of something. If He says it’s time, be encouraged: you are replaceable, and that is a good and freeing thing!